Access All Christmas Special - Best Bits of 2022
Your favourite Access All podcast moments from 2022 in one place.
We've had a ball since we launched back in April.
Nikki and Emma were strangers at the beginning of the year and now have become great friends through some very open conversations and a bit of over-sharing.
They introduce favourite moments on subjects like relationships, first jobs, karaoke choices - nothing has been off limits.
Remember when Nikki disliked Emma's Halloween costume? Why Nikki admitted her boyfriend Dave made her cry happy tears or when the team lost control over trousersnake-gate?
Plus visits from some of our favourite guests: comedian Rosie Jones, Actors Leon Harrop and Sarah Gordy, and Stricly star Ellie Simmonds.
Warning, prepare for plenty of laughs.
Transcription
29th December 2022
bbc.co.uk/accessall
Access All ��� episode 33
Presented by Nikki Fox and Emma Tracey
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NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Hi everyone, it���s Nikki and Emma here.
EMMA-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 We���re passionate about stories on disability, mental health and wellbeing, and we really want more people to hear them through this pod, Access All.
NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 So, if you can please can you follow and subscribe to Access All on 91腦瞳扦 Sounds, or wherever you listen to your podcasts. It really helps others find this pod, and we���d really appreciate it.
泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 I love karaoke Emma. I love it.
EMMA-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Do you? Oh, we must go for some karaoke. I���m really excited about that, because I bought myself ��� I mean I bought my niece, not myself ��� my niece a karaoke machine for Christmas.
NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Right, your niece?
EMMA-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Yes, my niece, who I���ll be in the house with all over Christmas, obviously.
NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Yeah, great present.
EMMA-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 I am so excited. Karaoke is mildly accessible if you know the words to the song.
NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Good point.
EMMA-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 It���s not accessible if you don���t know the words to the song because you can���t read the words to the song.
NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Have they not got braille karaoke?
EMMA-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 So, [in weary tone] I think in could hook up my braille display to my phone, and get the lyrics off of an app.
NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Let���s not be lazy about this, Ems, come on.
EMMA-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Oh, I���m so lazy. I mean, the reason that karaoke isn���t accessible to me is because I���m so lazy.
NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 I used to go three times a week, every week, for several years.
EMMA-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Oh my gosh.
NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Yeah, and I won a few competitions.
EMMA-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Wow!
NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 On a Saturday night we had karaoke in our local pub, and I was studying music at the time. I was really into The Cranberries. About 10 o���clock everyone was having a drink, they wanted an upbeat, they want I Will Survive. And I was like [sings to the tune of Zombie] , and their tanks, and their bombs, and their bombs, and their guns ��� and everyone was like open mouthed at me.
EMMA-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 So, did you put on the accent as well?
NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Yeah, full accent for the whole lot.
EMMA-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 I���m more of a sort of Grease mega mix, Hopelessly Devoted, Eternal Flame sort of person.
NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 That���s better.
EMMA-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Living on a Prayer, Sweet Child of Mine, Bohemian Rhapsody, give it welly. Can we go to karaoke in the New Year then?
NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Yes. Let���s do our own New Year���s Eve party in January.
EMMA-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 This is my role in this podcast, so forgive me for saying this, but should we throw in a few disability related songs?
NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Oh stuff that, Ems. It���s not all about disability. I���d get bored of it, love.
MUSIC-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Theme music.
NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 It���s Access All. I���m Nikki Fox and I���m joined by my beautiful co-host and very good friend, Emma Tracey, currently trying to decompress from a hugely busy year.
EMMA-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Yeah, it was busy, but for us it���s been an absolutely huge success. Since we started back in April we���ve created some really memorable moments I would say.
NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 I have loved doing this podcast, Emma. It���s definitely ��� don���t tell Watchdog, the One Show or the news ��� but my favourite job.
EMMA-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Oh, that makes me so happy.
NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 I just love coming in and having a chat with you.
EMMA-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 What were your standout moments, would you say?
NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 There were so many. Sam Renke, she���d just written a book, Best Thing Since Sliced Bread, she was phenomenal. I loved Anne Hegerty. I loved Rosie Jones. I mean, these are all the celeb fancy pants ones. I would say I loved Ellie but you went and did that interview on your own, didn���t you Emma?
EMMA-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Yeah, I loved Ellie.
NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 I���m not over that. But also all the guests, you know the stories that we���ve been telling over the last few months, and we get to speak to some wonderful people.
EMMA-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 It���s the people, the disabled people who get in touch and tell us their stories, and then come on and share it with us really publicly, when it���s really difficult for them. That is a real honour. I���ve found the whole thing very cathartic because I���ve sort of splurged about my own stuff, about exercise and accessibility and people saying that my kids are my carers. It���s felt like a great space, because you get it, you understand, you���re disabled too, you���re a woman.
NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 How very dare you, how, how���
EMMA-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 I just think that���s been fun for me as well to share stuff like that too.
Remember you can listen back to all of our previous episodes by searching 91腦瞳扦 Access All on your 91腦瞳扦 Sounds app. We thought we���d take this opportunity during Crimbo limbo week to reflect.
NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Yeah, we���re going to have a little delve into a bit of disability showbiz, a bit of the old razzle dazzle. There���s lots more disables on the telly now, Em, which is good, isn���t it? We need a few more though.
EMMA-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 When I think back to when I was a kid the only people I can actually bring to mind are Willow, Warwick Davis, who we���re hoping to have on soon, and then Corky from Life Goes On, who had Down���s Syndrome. I don���t know if you���ve ever seen that?
NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 No.
EMMA-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 I think it was bigger in Ireland than it was in the UK.
NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 No.
EMMA-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Yeah, so it was this American drama. And it was the first time I���ve ever seen a person with Down���s Syndrome in an acting role.
NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 I don���t remember anyone, Ems. I don���t remember growing up seeing anyone disabled.
EMMA-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Do you think it���s because you didn���t really know you were disabled when you were a kid? Because I think, I knew I was blind, but I hadn���t connected that with the disability community or being disabled. So, I remember seeing Mary go blind in Little House on the Prairie, and Lucy go blind in Neighbours, and they kind of registered with me; it was something I could relate to.
NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Spuggie, me eyes. Do you remember that? That was Byker Grove.
EMMA-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Oh, Byker Grove?
NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Yeah. Ant and Dec, wasn���t it?
EMMA-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Yeah. I remember lots of people going blind, but I don���t think I knew I was disabled, if that makes sense.
NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 No, I didn���t either. Me and my sister grew up both of us as disable, and even though we used to stand in front of the telly with my mum in little callipers looking like two little robots, I didn���t feel any different. Even when I went to school, I remember I used to do all the dance classes and everything. I used to love it. I went around telling everyone I was going to be a ballerina, with no concept of being disabled. And then I did a dance once for the school end of year assembly, or whatever it was, and they videoed it ��� good old video, back in the day, in 1608. When I watched it back I turned to my friend and I went, ���Who���s that disabled bird ruining the shot?���
EMMA-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 But actually when I found out I was disabled it was great and I really embraced the disability community.
NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 It was different when you were younger.
EMMA-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 And I am extraordinarily excited when we meet famous disabled people. And one of your favourites is our next clip, isn���t it?
NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Oh yes, I adore her. After we did our interview I stalked her on every social media platform, begged her to follow me so that I could keep in contact with her. It���s only Rosie Jones.泭
ROSIE-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 [Jingle bells] Hello. How are you?
NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 So good for seeing you.
ROSIE-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 I feel like I need to explain my voice, not the disabled part, but it���s a little bit deep and husky. Hello.
NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 And why���s it so deep and husky?
ROSIE-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 I���ve been in Edinburgh. I drunk all the alcohol, I was screaming my head off, and now I���ve ruined it. I think it makes me sound quite���
NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Sexy.
ROSIE-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 ��存exy.
NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Yeah, I���m with you. Sexy.
ROSIE-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Growing up in the ���90s being disabled, being the first person with a disability to go to my mainstream school was hard. And to add onto it I was having feelings for other girls. I remember wanting to kiss a girl in my class when I was four.
NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 No!
ROSIE-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Four years old. But because it was the ���90s, because on TV, in books there was no disabled people, and when they were rarely on TV they were the victims, they were vulnerable, they were the villains. And god forbid, none of them were having sex. No one was, oh my god, in a loving relationship. When I was old enough I thought no, I want to put this right. But even nowadays I couldn���t believe the lack of disabled characters in children���s books.
EMMA-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Yeah. So, you wanted to change that?
ROSIE-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Yes. So, that���s why I wrote Edie. I don���t think it���s a spoiler because everyone out there should have read the first book at least.
NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 [Jingle bells] And that was the lovely Rosie talking about her book, the Amazing Edie Eckhart. And I just absolutely loved talking to her. And that clip has just reminded me for the moment where it was like, oh it���s really nice, isn���t here, to hear somebody who has a similar experience to you. Because I grew up not knowing anyone who was disabled, so did my sister, we just knew each other. And we were the first disabled people to go to a mainstream school. I had a lot of similarities to Rosie. And also, I suppose you might have felt this too, Ems, working in this industry now, I remember part of her interview she was talking about a lot of the shows that she works on, a lot of the comedy shows, and she was talking about getting really knackeroonied. At first she was sort of pushing herself beyond her limits and she would be like, yes of course I can climb those four flights of stories, I���ll be absolutely fine, no worries at all. But now she���s got to a point where she���s not feeling like she has to please or hustle. She���s established, she feels she���s in a safe position to put her foot down and go no, if you want me we need to be working in an accessible location. I���m not going to climb four flights of stairs and then start recording a show and be absolutely exhausted. So, I love that because I often feel a bit like that as well working in this industry.
EMMA-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Yeah, I think we do try and push ourselves and get round stuff when really the ideal thing would be to ask for the proper accommodations.
NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 But it���s also hard when you feel like you���re trying to climb that ladder, isn���t it, and you���re trying to get to where you want to be. And it does take a little longer I think for some disabled people. It certainly has for me; it���s taken absolutely yonky doodles. I���m 42.
EMMA-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 But our production that really realised that and worked really, really hard to make everyone comfortable was Ralph and Katie. A feel-good drama, still on iPlayer, and the leads are two actors with Down���s Syndrome, Leon and Sarah, playing Ralph and Katie a married couple. 泭
NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 It was a spinoff of the A Word, wasn���t it?
EMMA-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 It was a spinoff of the A Word, exactly, which is a really popular drama about a little boy who���s autistic. So, we got to speak to Leon and Sarah and ask them all about the filming and being on the show. It was just such a lovely experience.
NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 [Jingle bells] What I love about the whole programme is okay, you guys both have Down���s Syndrome, and you���re touching on areas that other people may not be familiar with, but it���s not about that at all. You���re just any married couple. Jules, I wanted to ask you, was that kind of the main drive with the series?
JULES-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 It���s about a married couple just navigating through friendship, jealousy, tensions, parents potentially splitting up. And it was really important that that was the driving force. We have an amazing group of five disabled writers that worked with each other, and they all had an episode each, and they���ve all done some fantastic stories. And Down���s is touched upon occasionally. Katie gets very angry in episode one about assumptions people make about her because of her Down���s Syndrome.
KATIE-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Every day of my life people think I can���t do things for myself. Every day I have to take that shit. But not from you, not from my husband!
JULES-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 They���re just people. And these guys, when they talk about their Down���s Syndrome, they talk about it being not how they want to be described.
NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 That���s it.
JULES-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Isn���t that right, Sarah?
SARAH-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 It���s not about disabilities and it���s not about Down���s Syndrome; it���s about the person behind it basically. That���s what I���m always pointing out.
EMMA-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Assumptions. Ooh, that grinds my gears, I tell you.
NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Sarah, what was your favourite filming day?
SARAH-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 When Ralph and Katie get together and have a talk about what���s wrong with Ralph. Because it was very, very windy and very, very wet and you can���t even hear my voice that well.
JULES-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Sarah���s very good at remembering the worst day, aren���t you Sarah? That was in the Lake District. How many layers of clothes did you have on in the Lake District, Sarah? Can you remember?
SARAH-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 I can���t remember. Was it 13?
JULES-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 It was a lot of layers, wasn���t it? It���s a lovely scene with you and Nigel, who plays your dad, it was a lovely scene, but you were absolutely bloody freezing, sorry, you were absolutely freezing, weren���t you? I can tell you one big secret about Leon Harrop: in the episode three where he���s hurt his leg and he was on the sofa a lot, he was so tired that he quite often fell asleep.
NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Leon!
泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 [Jingle bells] That was Jules there as well who we had, who was part of the production team. Was Jules the producer?
EMMA-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Jules was the producer yes, and she was kind of giving us the intel. Maybe some of the stories that Leon and Sarah weren���t going to share she shared on their behalf, which I thought was very nice of her all together, wasn���t it. And you can still watch it on iPlayer, as I say, and it���s well worth it.
NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Oh, it���s well worth it.
EMMA-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 And it finishes off at Christmastime so it���s absolutely ideal for this time of year.
NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 I got dead hooked when I was doing my prep for that. I loved it, loved it. you���ve got another show on TV at the moment, Ems, one of my absolute favourite shows, because you know obviously I wanted to be a dancer. In my head I choreograph full routines. It���s [Strictly Come Dancing theme music plays].
EMMA-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Strictly Come Dancing.
NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 I���m so sad that you got to interview Ellie Simmonds while I wasn���t here. I was away. I���ve never regretted a holiday so much as when I found out that Ellie and Nikita were coming on. No, it was just Ellie, wasn���t it, sorry.
EMMA-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 It was Ellie. Her partner, Nikita Kuzmin wasn���t available to come on.
NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 I love Nikita as well. Isn���t Nikita diabetic?
EMMA-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Yes, type 1 diabetes, so everyone can see the monitor on his arm when he���s dancing. And it���s a really good way for people to feel seen as well. what a great couple and what a great interview Ellie was.
EMMA-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 [Jingle bells] And how did you and he adapt the dances?
ELLIE-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 So, at the start when we first started training he just started chatting to me and just got to understand what I could do, what I couldn���t do. And from thereon when we got really comfortable and really good friends with each other we would just chat about it, and he���d be like, ���Can you do this? Can you do that?��� And then when he got to know me he just thought of all the ideas in his mind. So, it was the stride length, it was again with dwarfism and achondroplasia I���ve got bowing of the legs, so with the Cha-Cha-Cha and some of the leg movements you���ve got to go fully straight which I can���t do, so he was aware of that. Again, the height difference with the hold, the likes of the Paso Doble he was doing a lot of it on his knees. And he was just doing the dances so it just worked and suited for me, so on a Saturday night it was able for me to go out there and shine because of the ideas and the choreography and the things that he did.
We would get a couple of hours off before we start back on Monday, and on those times where I would be resting, I would be sleeping and catching up, he would be working away and thinking of the dance for the week ahead. So, in a way these pro dancers they never stop. They���re literally amazing. They���re thinking of things, they���re dancing, they���re dancing with us, they���re teaching us, they���re doing stuff all the time. And for him having that extra just bit of a challenge, which wasn���t a challenge for him; he absolutely loved it.
EMMA-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Do you think actually being a Paralympian helped with the training and the kind of approach to it all?
ELLIE-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 It did help, no definitely, because some of the skills that I learnt from my swimming days, not just physical but mental, with the nerves and the pressure, those skills that I did when I was a swimmer to cope with those I did it on a Saturday night.
EMMA-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 So, what kinds of skills? What can I learn?
ELLIE-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 So, when you get really, really nervous again your heart rate raises. For me I just think about my breathing, I focus on something that���s stable. So, when I would walk on the dancefloor I would either look at Nikita or I would look at the glitter ball up on the roof; just two things to forget about all the people that are watching, to forget about the TV, to forget about the judges and the spectators. Those little things. And just realising that nerves are okay, it shows that you care, it shows that you want to go out there and do well, it���s passion. So, just flicking it from the anxiety side and thinking it���s positive, your body���s getting ready to go out there and show the world what it���s made of.
EMMA-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Do you get to keep your costumes? Does everyone get to keep them? I���m very keen that you get to keep those dresses basically.
ELLIE-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Yes, I���ve taken two actually, my two favourite ones. I���ve just kept them for myself as a memory. It was the gold dress on my first dance, and my red dress on my last dance. And it was so nice of them. I probably won���t wear them when I���m going out to the shops or anything, but they���re definitely ones that I���ll just keep as fond memories.
NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 You���re listening to the 91腦瞳扦���s disability and mental health podcast, Access All. And we���re going through some of our favourite clips of the year.
EMMA-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 On 8th September this year Queen Elizabeth II died at 96 years old. While she was lying in state a shorter accessible queue was devised for disabled people who wanted to visit Westminster Hall.
NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Now, lying in state is the very formal occasion in which a coffin is placed on view to allow the public to pay their respects in the days before the funeral. All you needed to do was show your blue parking badge. So, I went to speak to the people who were waiting in that separate queue.
FEMALE-泭泭泭泭泭 Yeah. This is my son, he���s my carer.
MALE-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 It���s been pretty well organised and that. There could be a more few seats maybe. You got married on the Coronation day, didn���t you?
FEMALE-泭泭泭泭泭 Yes, I got married.
MALE-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 So, it���s an association with the Queen that sort of goes back a long time.
FEMALE-泭泭泭泭泭 She got married on the second and we got married on the sixth. She had a horrible day; we had a lovely day.
MALE-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 In terms of weather you���re talking about.
FEMALE-泭泭泭泭泭 I mean weather, yes.
NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 I was going to say! Why was it important for you to come here?
FEMALE-泭泭泭泭泭 I just wanted to come along.
NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Just be part of it.
FEMALE-泭泭泭泭泭 It just makes me cry.
NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Oh, don���t cry.
FEMALE-泭泭泭泭泭 I know, just thinking of it. She was our Queen for so long. I was seven when she was crowned. You just want to be able to say you���ve done it, to be quite honest.
NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 And do you think you could have done it if they hadn���t had this, the access sorted?
FEMALE-泭泭泭泭泭 No. I needed the accessible definitely. I couldn���t have walked.
EMMA-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 That must have been quite a moment, Nikki. And you were right in the middle of it.
NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Yeah, I know. It wasn���t quite as chock-a-block as I thought it would be when I got down there, but it was a very special moment. Of course this queue was the accessible queue, so it wasn���t the queue as we saw on TV, miles and miles and miles. But they had to go to another location beforehand and there was some queuing involved there. some people had been sort of up and at it for a good couple of hours, so it wasn���t the smoothest ride for a lot of people, but they made it nonetheless.
泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Now, we���ve pulled together four of our favourite chatting moments, Emma. Are you ready for this?
EMMA-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 I am.
NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 We���ve really got to know each other on our podcast. Should���ve really done it in private.
EMMA-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Now, talking about the clips that are coming up, I was absolutely shocked to learn that you don���t like dressing up for Halloween, because you���re such a party girl and such a glamour puss. That���s a weird phrase, isn���t it, glamour puss?
NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 I���ll take glamour puss, I like it.
EMMA-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 You���re such a glamour puss that I just thought you���d be really into it.
NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Oh no, no. Halloween can do one.
EMMA-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 I don���t like dressing up either because I don���t know what I look like. I don���t know what other people are supposed to look like. How am I supposed to know how I���m supposed to look when I���m someone else?
NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 From my perspective, when you grow up as a disabled minger ��� which is basically what I was, Ems. I mean there are photos out there, I wish you could see them. There���s one that horrifies everybody.
EMMA-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Listen, I can���t see them and I don���t believe you.
NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 No, literally there���s one where I had ridiculous peach blusher on, bright amber hair, I mean it was all going on.
EMMA-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 You didn���t even need a costume.
NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 No, I didn���t. Exactly. I was scarier than anything you could dress up in on Halloween. And it���s taken me years to look the way I want to look, as best as I can, so why then revert back to making yourself look awful?
EMMA-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 But I don���t think dressing up has to look awful anymore. I mean, I looked awful.
NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 No.
EMMA-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 I���m still getting over, to be honest, your reaction to my fail safe, go-to Halloween costume.
NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 The binbag.
EMMA-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Yeah, the binbag.
NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 [Jingle bells] The only time I had to dress up was for my friend���s hen do, and I can���t remember where we were, Magaluf or somewhere like that. And I was a part-time wheelchair user at the time. I think they were going as the emergency services or whatever, so I just said to my very good friend, Lee, you go as a nurse, I���ll go as the patient in the wheelchair. And then we just literally got an old rag, and I put some red lipstick on it and I tied it round my head like a bandana.
EMMA-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 That���s perfect.
NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 That���s the most effort I���ve ever gone to.
EMMA-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 As a kid I was always the one in the binbag, always. I just didn���t know what else to do.
NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 In a binbag, what?
EMMA-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 You know you wear a black bag.
NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Why did you wear a black bag, Em?
EMMA-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 I don���t know. It���s something to do with���
NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Who told you to do that? Who told you to wear a black bag?
EMMA-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Other people were doing it as well.
NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Somebody was taking the mickey.
EMMA-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Do you think I was the only one in a black bag?
NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 I think you might have been the only one in a black bag. And I���ll tell you something, Emma, if we���d have been friends that would have not have passed on my watch.
泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 [Jingle bells] My first job with a company was working for a supermarket; I had two different supermarket jobs. I was a checkout assistant. I used to love it very, very much. It was around about that time, this was getting late ���90s now, where diversity ticks were coming in and companies were having to be a little bit more aware of employing disabled people. Because I remember I got both jobs without an actual face-to-face interview. They were just so pleased that I���d applied, that I was fairly able to do the job and I was disabled, so happy days. So, basically I just sat on the checkouts. And it was a job that I loved because I love a good old chat, so I loved talking to customers. And then obviously it all went media, media, media, but those were my first two proper jobs.
EMMA-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 And what did you learn as a disabled person from doing those jobs?
NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 I mean, I learnt in hindsight, back then I probably should have said a few more things, but I was just insistent that I was able to do everything. So, checkout, fine, my arms were just about strong enough to sweep everything through; could take the money, all hunky dory. Except for when there was a massive sporting event coming on and people bought crates of like 24 bottles of lager. And I was like there���s no way I���ve got the strength to scan that through, so I just used to ask customers to scan their own beers. So, I learnt that I���m resilient.
EMMA-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 That���s fine. People are used to that now.
NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Yeah, I used to go, excuse me sir, or madam, you probably can���t tell but I���m actually disabled, would you mind just sweeping those beers through the checkout because they���re too heavy for me, my arms won���t take it. Come up with a little gag, ha-ha-ha, thank you very much, could you also pack your own stuff. Have a lovely day.
EMMA-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 And did it always work out?
NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Yeah, it did.
EMMA-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Did people always just say, oh yeah, cool?
NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Yeah, I had the longest queue because I used to have a nice little chat with everyone. The only thing the boss used to say was, Nikki, you need to be a little bit quicker, not in the scanning, but stop talking so much.
EMMA-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 And what did the bosses think of you getting people to scan their own stuff?
NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 I never told them, Ems. Oh my goodness, I was the OG self-checkout.
泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 [Jingle bells] When I met Dave I was 40, and I knew pretty much that I loved him. He knows that. And I know that he loved me too, but obviously he took a little bit longer because I���m just an open book and I just look at him and I���m like I love you, not playing it cool in the slightest. But I���ve had to learn to not be perfect all the time. And what I mean by that is I���m very independent, I have my PAs, I���ve got my job, I want people to see the happy, fun, bubbly Nikki all the time. Which is just ridiculous, you can���t live that way. And when you have a boyfriend obviously you have to let go. I���ve had to allow him to do some things for me, like personal things that I do with my PAs, which I never dreamed of doing that with another fella.
The big thing for me when I started dating Dave was I was thinking okay, so when I go to the bathroom I will need a bit of a hand, that is just to sit down and to stand up, okay. But I need someone; I can���t do it without someone. That ship sailed back in my 20s. And I was like how do I do that, because if I���m going to spend any longer than eight hours with him, I���m going to have to ask him. So, when we first started dating I planned it so that one of my PAs would meet me wherever we were and I would sneak off for 15 minutes and come back. Then I was like okay, this isn���t going to be viable long term, right. He���s so intuitive my fella, and so empathetic and wonderful, I remember this distinctly: we were like a good couple of months in, we were getting to the point where we were definitely going to be staying over with each other, and as we were saying goodbye he came to my window and he goes, ���Well, I guess for you now you���ve just got to put up with me giving you a hand going to the bathroom, haven���t you?��� And I was like ah, and I cried a bit.
NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 [Jingle bells] We went to see the Fleet Foxes in concert.
EMMA-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 You went to a concert? Lovely.
NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 I went to a concert. You know my love for music.
EMMA-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Yes.
NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 I love the Fleet Foxes. I introduced Rach to the Fleet Foxes, Rachel being my sister. She also quite fancies the lead singer. But yeah, we drove all the way up. My boyfriend came; Rach and her PA came, Soph. And we had a lovely old time. And honestly, Emma, nothing happened that like caused any problemos, what with two disableds going on tour and going to a concert.
EMMA-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Parking was okay?
NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Parking was dandy. Hotel was brilliant.
EMMA-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 The viewing platform was all right?
NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 It was lovely. It was at the back, but the venue that we went to wasn���t enormous. No one���s heads were blocking my view. We were right by the bar. Honestly, we got really looked after. The only thing Rach and I, my sister, we were going to get two taxis, accessible taxis, and we dialled and it seemed there was only one in the area. So, I gave that taxi to Rach and my boyfriend was like, I���ll drive. He���s got a big van, he���s got a ramp, stick the old chair in the back. So, it was all a bit off the cuff. But we did it and it was lovely.
EMMA-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 So, you didn���t fall off the viewing platform?
NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Didn���t fall of the viewing platform, no we did not, no. And they were brilliant the Fleet Foxes. Honestly, see them live. They are amazing.
EMMA-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Yeah. You weren���t asked for proof of disability on the way in or anything?
NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 [Laughs] No. Do you know what, surprisingly Emma, the two girls that rocked up in their electric wheelchairs with headrests weren���t asked if they were disabled.
EMMA-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Well, I���ve heard of people being asked for medical evidence before they go into a concert. Is that person���? Do you really need that carer with you? What are they actually going to do for you? Could you not go in without them?
NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 No, it was more like, do you want another carer.
EMMA-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 [Jingle bells] That was so funny.
NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Honestly, it still makes me laugh.
EMMA-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 If you thought that was funny, this next bit is just��夷t made me howl.
NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 I love this bit so much.
[Jingle bells] But Dave, our studio manager behind the glass, we call him the wizard. He���s a technical genius. He sent us this video the other day. It���s from a blind influencer and she���s telling us about an unexpected photo she received. Now, even though people know she can���t see it seems that some men like to send her pictures that she describes as:
CLAIRE-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 A lot of lower regional area pictures from guys.
NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 She has to use AI technology to tell her what is in pictures, and the technology isn���t always perfect.
CLAIRE-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Maybe they don���t believe I���m blind, but I rely on a screen reader to narrate my phone to me, and it also narrates images. And I have just received an image, and I have to share this with you, this is what my screen reader has described to me: ���One face, probably a mushroom growing in the ground���.
EMMA-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 So, obviously it looked at the picture that Claire Sisk got sent, that���s the influencer we���re talking about here, and decided that rather than the lower regions of a man, it was probably a mushroom growing in the ground.
NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Oh, I just love it so much. What else could you use to describe? That���s brilliant.
EMMA-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Well, I���m sort of hoping a cucumber maybe.
NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Aubergine.
EMMA-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 What���s AI technology, Nikki?
NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Artificial intelligence, doody.
EMMA-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 What does it mean?
NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Emma, you���re testing me. This isn���t on the script. I���m thinking Terminator, Skynet.
EMMA-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Isn���t it the technology is sort of using intelligence, or whatever that means, to kind of guess at stuff to be a bit more human? Is that what it is?
NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Yes, Emma Tracey, that���s what it is. Emma Tracey, I don���t have any idea.
EMMA-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 I know, that���s why I asked you!
NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 I always say AI but what is it? I think robots, do you know what I mean?
EMMA-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Well, I just thought if I heard AI technology I might not necessarily know what it means. But I also knew you didn���t know what it means, that���s why I asked you.
NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 I���ll tell you what, I���d love to know what the audio description is like for Naked Attraction.
EMMA-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 What is that? Is that the programme where everyone has to get naked the first time they meet?
NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Get their bits and bobs out yeah, yeah, yeah. You choose someone by your naked body.
EMMA-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Well, the first time I ever went to the cinema to see audio description it was for Brokeback Mountain, which has quite a lot of sex scenes. Or maybe it only has one sex scene, but it seemed like a long sex scene because it was audio description and I wasn���t used to that.
NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Oh amazing. What did they say?
EMMA-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 So, I can���t remember the exact description from Brokeback Mountain, but the kind of thing audio describers usually say is, ���She looked into his eyes lovingly. He puts his arm around her and draws her in for a deep kiss���.
NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Oh, a deep kiss.
EMMA-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Yeah.
NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Wowzers. What about 50 Shades of Grey?
EMMA-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 I haven���t watched that, Nicola.
NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 No, I haven���t either. But can you imagine the audio description on that?
EMMA-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 You see, I read a lot of audio books as well so I���m used to other voices saying really sort of ��� not that I listen to audio porn ��� but really sort of sexy things.
NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 I���m doing that really annoying thing, because I don���t have a clue what it���s like, getting all excited about it and sounding a bit like a bit of a perv.
EMMA-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 It would be quite good if there was an audio describer that just followed me around.
NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 That would be good.
EMMA-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Just saying, ���Nikki sits down in the studio. She looks tired, but ready for a great podcast���.
NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 That���s quite good, that. ���Nikki clearly missed her mouth when she drunk her coffee and had stains all over her top. Nikki couldn���t find a brush this morning.��� Dave, the wizard in the studio, didn���t bank on us doing this when he sent us that clip.
EMMA-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Oh my gosh, Dave has found us a clip of the TV show Naked Attraction.
NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Oh Dave, you filthy, filthy genius. [Music] Stop it!
CLIP-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 She scans the smorgasbord of shlongs on display���
NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 No!
CLIP-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 ��圩rom lengthy trouser snakes to peckers.
NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 No!
CLIP-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Ally purses her lips, browsing the offerings like she���s perusing a dinner menu.
NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Oh that is��存he said shlong!
EMMA-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 And trouser snake.
NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Browsing like she���s browsing a dinner menu.
EMMA-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 But this is not objective. Audio description is supposed to be reasonably informative. But they���re just throwing in words there.
NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 I don���t know what it���s like to not see, but if I couldn���t see I���d want to hear the word schlong.
EMMA-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 But trouser snake though. If you can���t see and you don���t read magazines and stuff you might not even know what a trouser snake is.
NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 No, that���s true. But browsing the various schlongs like she���s browsing a dinner menu.
EMMA-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 It���s one of the usual describers as well. I���ve heard her describe Coronation Street, children���s stuff on CBeebies. The describers are my friends now. And when I hear them say that sort of chat I���m like how can I now listen to you do the Twirlywoos tomorrow morning?
NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 This has thrown you, hasn���t it, Ems?
EMMA-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 It���s just I wish it wasn���t her. I wish it was someone else.
NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Oh, you like her. You know this���
EMMA-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 She���s like a middle aged lady. She seems like a nice lady.
NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 She���s having a whale of a time. That���s the best gig she���s ever had. She didn���t mention the pubic hair, but then pubic hair it���s gone now, hasn���t it? We���re all bald, aren���t we?
EMMA-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 No comment.
NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 [Jingle bells] Oh, we have had a bit of a blast this year, haven���t we?
EMMA-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 We have.
NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 It���s been brilliant, Ems. We���ve had Paralympians, actors, Strictly contestants, a governess, a baroness and an astronaut. Blimey, when you say it like that.
EMMA-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 Quite a list. What was your best moment of the last year and what would you like to see more of? Tell us. You can email accessall@bbc.co.uk, tweet @91腦瞳扦AccessAll, Instagram also @91腦瞳扦AccessAll, or send a voice note to our WhatsApp 0330 123 9480. And remember to start your message with the word Access, please.
NIKKI-泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭泭 And listen, as it���s the season of goodwill and all that, if you could recommend or share this podcast, or just introduce someone random to Access All we would really appreciate it, especially as winter can be such a miserable time. So, here���s to the New Year. Merry Christmas everyone. I hope that you���ve not put any pressure on yourselves. Just try and enjoy something. Have a rest if you can.
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